This is not what you wanted tonight

to see her move against the light

Its hard when you are scared

Of what will become of yourself

Just know that somewhere out there

Some one understands

And I might never find

The perfect words to say to you

But I hope you'll know that

I never put these walls up

And I don't know if they'll ever fall

But if one day they do I hope I can have you

Its not something I can wait out

Its something we must realize

:: Still living human bodies ::

you pray to nothing out loud

thai food

and

talking

Need to be more efficient on updating here my loves

alone and evil

not open

just bitter

lately

I feel like I come up short, Because I don't believe I am beautiful

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herewegoagainanotherskinnyminniebeautyoutforsomethingIfoundfirstbuttheydoitsosomuchbetter

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I'm done with people who have commitment problems

If you can't, Then Don't

Please for god sake don't feed me all your bullshit

I try to be nice

But seriously how can I

In positions like that?

I put my finger on it

you try to hard

and it really annoys me

vegan soup

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trying to fit into that jacket from jcrew

carly had peopler

and then aj

twas fun.

things get shaky

for everyone

but its your mind

that is your escape

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I must say I am quite dissapointed in the shakiness of communication

between me and one particular person

who more than most I enjoy conversation

but there has been a lacking

less filling

maybe time has taken its toll

but why so soon?

I want us to be good

Si tu m'aimais, et si je t'aimais, comme je t'aimerais

however

L'amour fait les plus grandes douceurs et les plus sensibles infortunes de la vie

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Why must we

as humans

be so oddly exclusive

we all have highs and lows

I do not understand

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.

I will give my

love to you

if in return you

do the same

Iwanttobecomealotlessbullshitmorebluntness

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I'll always wake up so confused

each time I have that dream of you

but, if you dreamt of me too

Does that mean we dreamt the same dream?

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the past three days has been very busy for me

Sage came home and we went to see harry potter for the 2nd time

at the hipp

odrome

took lots of pictures

ate dinner

we saw matt

then we went to amys new apt.

very cute

but there were

some fights

bad ones

but I am not involved

call it fear

call it being selfish

I call it not being

involved for it is not my place

I am here to help

but if you do

not need it

be blunt

tell me if you do or don't

because I am not the judge of anyone but myself

then

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seeing band o

f horses was awesome

all thanks to carly

who has been very very sweet lately

and I hope everything works

out

they had a secret show at the village tavern before they start the next tour

tons

of

fun

so then we went to paris's

she had a coming home party for sage

it was hot but fun

lots of friends

old and new

::saying it loud but you just don't hear::

Grace was leaving for london so she held a bash at her apt.

Joose is terrible!

not impressed with my itunes shuffle playlist tonight

still having camera issues

bites.

See Fernando stuck in my head.

people are making me very mad as of late

I

hate

when

people

do

things

better

than

me

I know exactly what you did and that upsets me

but im moving past that.

How do I always end up screwing up

I guess it isn't my fault

People need to cut me some slack

I also don't like people who do shitty things and then call me out, realize you have faults to

sweating out this fever

sick sick

fire light, and the way it reflected off your eyes

I will never be able to get close

and that is the worst feeling

people need to shut up and get it

because I do

I have problems

but im trying to live with them