::saying it loud but you just don't hear::

Grace was leaving for london so she held a bash at her apt.

Joose is terrible!

not impressed with my itunes shuffle playlist tonight

still having camera issues

bites.

See Fernando stuck in my head.

people are making me very mad as of late

I

hate

when

people

do

things

better

than

me

I know exactly what you did and that upsets me

but im moving past that.

How do I always end up screwing up

I guess it isn't my fault

People need to cut me some slack

I also don't like people who do shitty things and then call me out, realize you have faults to

sweating out this fever

sick sick

fire light, and the way it reflected off your eyes

I will never be able to get close

and that is the worst feeling

people need to shut up and get it

because I do

I have problems

but im trying to live with them

seeing rocky horror picture show tonight at 12

then spending the night in

getting well rested

doing a mud mask

and thrifitng for the fourth

::ACID HANDS::

little things remind me of you

what I want to do

all of me is a part of you

I hate that you are gone

but I have to accept it

I lost you

but I didnt loose wanting to be like you

and im working for that

::acid wash jeans::

dying a pair tomorrow

hopefully

need to improvise with a red shirt

sometimes im so overcome with my own anxiety I loose myself

I cannot identify who I am

I want to know so badly what is wrong

but it seems there is no answer

its funny how we do things without thinking

we punish ourselves

something we can prevent we let happen

I guess that is getting caught up in the moment

It hurts me though

I always tell myself I am stopping

but now I am

for good

I do what I need to

in order to take care

I forget I am human

but then

I realize

I am human

I am hunter

I am going to be ok

I will clean up

I will be happy

I am smart

I am funny

I am a good person

so just take a shower

clean up

and start from scratch

because everything will be ok

there isn't anything to worry about

::::shempi::::

:: cleaning ::

tomorrow I need to focus on getting some things done

cameras

records

fourth of July outfit

all need to be put together

stepping steps and floating floats

::I need my phone back::

going to go down a kombucha

for my anxiety