why would you have to leave when im just now discovering who I am
right when the leaves started changing
when the heat was fading 
right when I started to question what exactly life is for
but I remember 
the wide fields 
and my hands, meeting in yours
as the afternoon sun started to match the pumpkins
and all the little lights buzzed away 
I haven't returned there since the last time I saw you
now, all contrast is thrown out the door 
but when I return here I feel the most human
letting in the words you taught me
they'll help me get through 
regret for not spending the time
and even though I may not see you for some time 
you'll be there, unnoticed 
just like you have always been 
and I thank you for that